work in progress

things i know i need to work on, and have been working on for a while now

• listening (i have the tendancy to talk and share my stories when people are sharing theres because i want them to know they're not alone in their situation. not because i want to make it seem like what im going through is worse. just that im going through or went through something similiar and know they can make it out of it. when sometimes all people want is just a silent listener)
• stop talking negatively about things because of fear of them. i used to always be so negative back when i was 16 lets say and i realized it and decided to be more positive and to remove words such as 'gay' 'retarded' 'lame' out of my vocab and i did for several years...then they started coming back and i started talking negatively about things. and i have been stopping. but little by little
• passiveness. i need to take charge of what i want in life instead of letting it slip by
• emotion. i have a hard time dealing with other people's emotions. its not that im cold hearted. its just when i see someone going through a hard time the thing i do automatically is step back and give them space. because that's what i need when i go through things. just to be alone. but no one is the same and i want to learn how to deal with these things.

they're are more but at the moment im drawing a blank...oh well