i doubt you'll read this since you never were a blogging type, but if you do that's cool... i don't hate you and i don't regret you or us. just know it's not going to be the same or like back when we first started. yeah i'd like to be friends but it's going to take a hell of a long time to do so. i don't blame you or myself. my mind just can't get around what happened from then to these past few weeks. and i sensed it coming. i noticed how you'd be so distant when you were right next me. i noticed they way you'd stare off instead of looking at me. i noticed the way you stopped caressing me and kissing me. but i so badly wanted to ignore it. i guess it's best, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. it hurts a lot. and there's nothing you or i could do about it. but we both deserve to be happy and we weren't. i knew you weren't happy with us, and i was worried as to why you always looked bored/miserable and blamed myself. i knew it, but yet i love you. it might take a while to stop but eventually i will. cause i hate this feeling of pain and salted eyes and it's not worth it. it's not going to bring you back, its not gonna make either of us happy, it's just going to help me get over you. i hope.
so here's to the new year of finding out who i am without you i guess.
see you around.
sincerely,the girl you once loved.
ps. don't get upset if you do read this, it's not a way to get back at you in anyway.
just a way for me to let it all out since i didn't really talk.
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