curbside prophet

today though i did nothing but rest, was full of blessings. woke up and spent the morning chatting with miss kaila and my mom as we had a really scrumptious breakfast. then sadly kaila had to leave me at 2- hah i honestly feel like such a clingy girl i get sad when she or i have to leave. we've formed this strange bond but i love it. we stayed up till 5am talking of serious things, nonense and had a good laugh attack prior to sleeping. my poor neighbours haha. anyways that went off on a tangent, after she left i went and opened the mail box then came up and handed my mom her mail. i had a letter for myself from "secret santa, shh..." and was so curious so i opened it and it read "gab, to help out with life, love ya" and as i opened the bottom of the paper money almost fell out. i was in complete shock. it was $100 and i just burst into tears, heck im tearing up now. it was such an amazing act of kindness and blessing i was simply dumbfounded. my mom witnessed this happening and just embraced me and said "see you are loved. god's taking care of you." it was a beautiful surprise.

 and since im quite the dectective i figured out who it was and thank you soooo much my love. you are truly a blessing in my life and im so so soooo grateful to have such an amazing bestfriend as yourself. i know you find it hard at times to trust in God but that act was a giant leap of faith towards him. he's so calling for you right now to just run towards him. take it from me, just do it. and don't hold back even the slightest. that's what i did the past few years, i knew god loved me i knew who he was but i didn't give him all of me. didn't surrender my life to him until several weeks ago. and hun, it honestly is the best feeling in the world. knowing someone as great and wonderful and amazing as him has got hold of my heart, future, and dreams is just so-gah i don't even have words.no word can justify what it is he does better than love, well agape. you're so close to surrendering to him i can feel it- even though im miles away. i can feel it. just like you can sense what to do or say for me. it's god. and he's already got hold of you, just let go. he's honestly just around the corner waiting for you.

and once again i've gone off topic, but it needed to be said.

oh also another little blessing- remembered to pay my cable/internet bill today, it would have been cancelled if i didn't do so. i don't know why, but i have this thing against opening mail. i just feel like im going to get bad news so i leave them unopened. well that's going to stop. especially since today was quite the lovely little blessing. in addition to stopping our connection to the world and media from being cancelled, we realized we have a home phone number. yeaaaaaap. we've had a home line this entire time...i feel foolish but it was a good laugh and relief knowing we wouldn't have to fork out extra money to start one.

but yeah. today was a very good day. my heart is overwhelmed with so many things, but in a good way. it's just full of gratitude and expectancy and love. i feel like a hippy in a way haha, but i don't mind it one bit