meh

sooooo i should go to bed since it's 1am,

but lately i just haven't been able to sleep. my mind just won't shut off. it keeps going with all these thoughts, memories, ideas, worries, dreams etc. etc. i wish there was a switch to shut them off temporarily- well more of an individual switch for each subject/category so you can choose which to shut off and which to keep on? i have a difficulty focusing on one task cause at times i see them all and get overwhelmed. don't quite know where to start but  i know where i want them to go. today i felt as if i wasted it. i woke up around 9am and lied in bed till 11:30 then decided to fully clean the washroom then had breakfast- i can't have lunch unless i have breakfast, yes i know it's odd but it's just the way i function. i was originally going to meet my friend downtown to hang out and such but then realized the amount of assignments and art projects that have accumulated and are due this week. so i planned to stay home and work on them after cleaning the kitchen and my room. guess what? i did neither... today was one of those bizarre days where it passes by slowly but feels as if it sped by.

 i still have projects to do but i'll work on them tomorrow- although the whole plan was to complete most of them today so i wouldn't have to stress out, even though they're not due till thursday. so i hope if i do end up working tomorrow it's as early as possible because i have an interview at hollister at 4pm. yeap the one time i walk into hollister the manager comes up to my sister, her friend, and i and offers us positions as models. i told her i had a job and she said "well still apply we're flexible with the hours!" so i took the card. i had forgotten about once i got home and didn't think much of it until the called me a few days later telling me i had an interview the next day... i didn't even apply. so they told me to apply on line in order to do the interview. unfortunately i wasn't able to make it because i actually worked a shift (i had 4 hours of work last week...not cool). i recieved another call today from hollister asking if i attended the interview last friday, which i didn't- i think they were already going to hire me hah. so lets pray if i do work tomorrow i get off at 3... because this whole being on call all week does not work for me.although i adore the clothing at aritzia and i'm not a fan of the clothing at hollister (just due to the logo everywhere) i'd rather wear clothing i could care less about and get more hours than to barely work only to be able to get discounts on clothing i shouldn't be purchasing. im almost 21 i need full time hours: i have numerous bills to pay for, & i need to have money saved in my account. so yeah that's that situation.

speaking of almost being 21...