soooo had a 3 and a half hour conversation with an old friend you could say. we had something going on between us way back in grade 11 i believe but never dated, just knew we liked each other. and he's been texting me lots now and decided to call me today while he was driving: he has the tendancy to fall asleep while driving & talking to someone else keeps him awake. im not an advocate of talking on the phone while driving but he insured me he had his bluetooth on. anyways i wasn't expecting it to last that long but it did. i forgot what it was like to have an actual phone conversation with someone, well more like with a guy. he's the only guy that i've been able to have actual phone converasations with, even in the past, we'd talk till late at night then finally go to sleep and the next night do the same thing without awkward or forced conversations...
i dunno what's going exactly but i'm not going too look too much into it. all i know is i need to be careful and not lead him on or trick my heart into thinking anything is happening. i did swear to myself to not date until june and it's only been a month and a half since my break up. not completely healed although somedays i feel i am. the last thing i want is to jump or rush into anything because i don't want to be alone or something. uggggh. i don't know what to do. if i told my mom she'd give me a big smile and be like "oh reaaaaally" and she has always hinted that we would get hitched or something...who flippen knows. all i know is i need to be real real reaaaaaal careful with this.
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