sigh

just taking a long slow inhale of the air and letting it out with "hmmh" 

why the sigh? this is why:

• i just realized theCINCO will not be truly/compelety re-united till a while. with comings and goings, and more fairwells at airports (so dumb. airports make me choke back salty water till i burst as water flows out of my eyes like a tap on full blast)
• my jobs are not giving me the mula i need to save. i look forward to the day that i don't owe a cent nor have to borrow. the day i can lock it up in a savings account and still have money to have a social life every now and then
• the emily carr portfolio deadline is in a couple of weeks and i have a lot to do but with three courses, two jobs, church and lifegroup im finding it difficult to find time to sit down and create.
• i can't really sleep early anymore. thought im tired i just can't do it. (12am right now)
• i have to write the third draft for a story that i haven't even written for tomorrow
• it's almost been a year since i've seen my family in Costa Rica- which makes me wonder how fast will time go and the years pile up till i see them again?
• i'll be 20 in march and i can't drive & im broke as heck (even though i work so darn much). this needs to change.

now don't worry, im not going all depressed on you or anything. just a sigh.

SIGH v. sighed, sigh·ing, sighs

v.intr.

1.

a. To exhale audibly in a long deep breath, as in weariness or relief.

b. To emit a similar sound: willows sighing in the wind.

2. To feel longing or grief; yearn: sighing for their lost youth.

see ain't that bad. just getting a bit weary cause im longing to reach my goals in life (though at times they seem vague). i'm yearning for the day everything falls into place. but i'm oh so relieved because I KNOW i'm not doing this along g-o-d has by back. he's right behind it pushing me because he know's what im capable of. thank goodness im starting to realise the potential in me.gotta keep pushin' forwards gabs.