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Saturday, December 5

nervousness doesn't suit me.

Dec. 5th. 
ohhhhhh boy. off to emily carr later today...
so nervous. my portfolio isn't even a portfolio, it's  more like loose sheets of paper...
oh my goodness i don't know what to do.
no backing out, my aunt's already driving me there. there' no more backing out of things for me
gotta just go for it. not like i'm applying yet...it's feedback. hopefully better then what i think it's gonna be.
hopefully.
i don't like hoping, it's just waiting. i like knowing, so i'll do some praying.
 i have to stop slaming the doors shut on my face, time to walk through them with my head looking straight ahead.
this is life, you do something and don't know what the outcome will be
just wait to see if it makes something beautiful.

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